Right Path Taken?
Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 9:36 PM

I have just gotten back my economics mid term paper.. Of course, i didn't fail the paper but oh well, i didn't do that well... As a reminder, i am majoring in Economics... Why Economics? Don't ask me why, as i never even apply for it... 4 years ago, i applied Medicine for JPA, Medicine for Asean, Pharmacy for UEM, Pharmacy for Inti, Law for MMU, and Law for BNM.. Can you see any similarities in there?
So, how did i end up doing Economics? Again, because of my stupid mouth. I was trying hard to impress my interviewer the other day, and i told them i collected RM 5000 for Tsunami Victims.. bla bla bla... And they said, "You will work better as an economist, not as lawyer" Few weeks later, i received a call - "Jay Sern Tan, congrats, Economics , America, accept or not?"

And i was desperate for a scholarship after failing my application for Medicine. I said yes without a second thought. I was thinking that being a banker is not that bad, at least, i can dress up so nicely and dont have to worry of being on-call 24/7. Out working at 8am, and back at 4.30pm... Spent the evening with family, friends or sports... That is what i call as life!

But now, it seems like i am really struggling with this thing... I dont think i have that much passion in Economics, although not that i am in love with anything else [except someone.. : )] . I do not hate economics tho, but i just dont have special interest in it.. In the past, i never complain how hard is my biology class... Now, i complained and rather gave up complaining on my econ classes... Compared to my counterpart, my batch mates who are doing economics in my school, it seems like i am achieve nothing... T-T

But again, even if i am given the chance to do Medicine or Pharmacy, will i be happier? No, i do not know... Maybe grass is always greener on the other side of land? (ok, i might use it wrongly, i am bad in idioms.. so, treat it as a joke if it is wrongly used) Maybe i will really be happy if i can pursue my studies in Graphics and Interior Design... Up to this point, i am not sure if i have taken the right path... Advises anyone?

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This Friday, i am taking part in the Chicago Idol Final Round. I won it last year, but this year, my chances of winning is 0.00001%. By winning, i am not saying to be the champ. It will be a daunting task for me to be in the Top 3 this year, let alone to be the champion. This year, for don't know what reason, so many terror people are taking part..

My short description of myself and the song that i am gonna sing!
p/s : i cut out some words here to
prevent myself from upsetting someone.. lol..
p p/s: a girl who i like, heard it? see it?


I need the winning prize money to pay for my rental , to pay for my food, to pay for my survival... I need to win.. I really need to win... But again, i wont be disappointed if i lose anyway, cause i am not pinning on any hope of winning... Seems like this year i am losing my title of "Chicago Idol" to someone else... Hopefully there is a crowning ceremony, so that i can pass my trophy to the winner this year LMAO.. (like the beauty pageant style.. haha)

Vote for me , if there is any voting session ya! (ok, i made that up) ... I sucks in voting , especially after my downfall for CUSA Election.. LOL.. So, praying hard that there is actually no voting involved, because if they do, i will lose my ass even before competiting... -I am such a loner, and well, not many friends- Or maybe i have a lot of friends who will turn against me when it comes to election and voting? :p

Ok, show u some retard picture of mine using Polaroid software.. It definitely triggered my urge to buy a Polaroid... *hint hint*

Happy... i wonder when can i be as happy as that again..

Look at my eyes, one big one small..

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