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I went for Britney Spears Concert yesterday. It was amazing to watch, but not to listen. She lip synced most of the time and only sang one ballad, which was "everytime". However, since the theme for the concert is "circus", there were a lot of acrobatics performances and they also incorporated all these circus elements into the dances.


The concert actually started with an opening act by Pussycat Dolls. Goodness... They are damn hot! Like very hot..Huhz.. And they actually amazed me with their live singing... They sang pretty well, and strut our their booties while singing hits songs such as Don't Cha, Button and of course, they ended their performance with my favorite song, Stick With You! They really did a great job in warming up the audience.. Trust me, the audience just went crazy when all 5 of them appeared on stage wearing corset, tight skinny freaking shorts... Huhz... Hotz!!


After Pussycat Dolls opening act, the show continued with some acrobatic performances, just like the what we always see in the circus... They were very entertaining, and some really amazed me!

And then, here comes, BRITNEY SPEARS! She came out through so some magic performance and started using the "SM" theme by entering the cage, using whips, etc... It was cool... Never did i expect i will ever see her singing in front of me! Come on, she is Britney Spears... No one hates her when she started her career with songs like, "Hit Me Baby One More Time" , "Opps I did It again"...

The only ballad of the night was "Everytime". I think she sang live for this song and did a pretty good job. However, it was funny then, she used a very kiddy voice while talking to the audience.. Damn funny...She sat on an umbrella (somehow reminded me of Mary Poppins!! )while singing "Everytime".


By watching her concert, one of my "American Dream" was accomplished.. Ha ha~ To be honest, one of my goal to come to America is to either watch her concert or Cristina's..

p/s: I am sure that this concert will not be brought into Malaysia. Even if they do, no one will want to see Britney's concert where she need to cover her body from head to toe... Lol...

It was a great concert to WATCH, but definitely not nice to listen. Well, everyone was screaming till i could hardly listen to anything that she sang, if she did sing any.. haha.. Nevertheless, she really tried her very best in entertaining the audiences.. The stage was really big, and she danced non stop for almost 1.5 hours. This is something very difficult, especially for her who is trying to make a comeback..

Go go Britney! You rocked the stage yesterday!! :)
Next concert : IL Divo...

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The temperature outside is getting colder and colder, probably gonna snow again (haha.. wtf).. It was damn hot two days ago, but it is cold and gloomy now... Cold and gloomy, hmm, probably best summarize my feeling right now...

I just came out from my exam hall.. I had my economics midterm, and i think i bombed it, again... Although i did "fill in" everything and never leave any questions blank, but well, this is America... In America, they do not give credits for just filling in the blanks (ok, some do, but most dont).. I still remember that many many years ago back in HSBP, whenever i do not know how to do an scientific essay question, i will b-s all the way from the beginning till the end, and can still end up getting a pretty A if not highest score... Haiy... Economics ohh economics... I thought i love you, but i think you love me more than i love you... I guess i am really a more scientific person after all...

Yesterday, i was quite concerned with something that has been bothering me... And instead of revising for my econs, i spent some time figuring out how to solve my problem..And i still fail to make any progress... T-T I need to consult a professional on this issue... I really need...

Lastly, i paid my May rental yesterday and my account is officially USD 5.60. And this precious USD5.60 will last me till 31 June 2009.. How can i survive with such little money? T-T And i do not want to use parents money since it make no sense... Why? Ok, last month, i transfered back my savings here back to Malaysia when the exchange rate rocketed to 3.81... Being the most cheapo person on Earth, i calculated nicely and that i will transfered back all my money back to Malaysia , leaving just sufficient amount of money for me to survive till June... I need to do that cause i am looking forward to buy my first house/condo when i am 28... And i am also working my ass off now (i am not a gigolo..wtf) in order to create a better future for myself... So, i brilliantly transfered back the money and felt so happy with that decision..

Mana tahu, out of the sudden, i realized that i need to pay my usd 550 study abroad fee... So, i have no choice but to pay that fee, and that is why, now.. i am damn poor.. wait... not damn poor, is i am basically left with nothing now... T-T which leads to the fact that, i have to win the Chicago Idol next week regardless of what... MUST win!!!!!!!!

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After a week of disastrous performance, i vow to make a comeback this week... (lol, sounds so dramatic, as if i will... -_-!!! ) But things have been getting better today, i wow-ed my fellow colleagues as i sang for them during out staff meeting.. You know, getting compliments , regardless of them being genuine or not, really boost up one's confidence... I sang "A Moment Like This" by Kelly Clarkson, and they listened so attentively... I am proud again... Thanks OMSA Folks.. Love you all...

Here's the report card...
Econ - Problem Set due on Monday
- Midterm on Wednesday
SOSC - Response paper due on Monday
- 6-8 pages long paper due on Friday
Drama - One critical response paper due on Tuesday
- One role analysis paper due on Tuesday
- One scene analysis paper due on Tuesday

Here's some picture from the National Badminton League 2009...

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I played for a consecutive 8 hours, probably the toughest and most tiring competition i have ever took part in.. Here's my result:-

(only games that involved me)
UChicago VS University of Illinois Chicago
Men double - Won both games
Men single - Lost one game

UChicago VS Eastern University Illinois
I wasn't fielded in this round

UChicago VS UPenn
Men Double - Lost both games
Men Single - Won one game

UChicago VS Northwestern
Men Double - Won one and lost one
Men Single - Lost one because i was sub in when we were trailing at 2-9.. Game ended at 14-17

UChicago VS Purdue
Men Single - Lost one

Verdict : I am not a good double player... And today, i suck! Enough said...

That ends my failure week in a high note... Failed in human relation, failed in election, failed in singing, failed in my academics, and now, failed in badminton... Start to wonder if i am good in anything? :(

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Is Saturday afternoon now. The weather outside is great , a little bit of sun with a little bit of rain... I know most people hate gloomy rainy days, but i personally love rainy days the most... I feel very excited and calm and happy when the sky turns gloomy and rains... :)

Anyway, back in the past, during Saturday, i would probably be watching my non stop TV marathon, training for my badminton, eating my favorite food and etc... But all these will never happen anymore, as i am stuck in UChicago... T-T

Despite the "i-failed-everything-that-i-did-this-week", i am still being flooded with heavy workload that is killing me... Let's see what do i have..

Badminton - National Badminton League on Sunday (tomorrow)
Econ - Problem Set due on Monday
- Midterm on Wednesday
SOSC - Response paper due on Monday
- 6-8 pages long paper due on Friday
Drama - One critical response paper due on Tuesday
- One role analysis paper due on Tuesday
- One scene analysis paper due on Tuesday

I'm tired, both mentally and physically... Haven't been sleeping well these few days, with so many failures + all these heavy workload, i have been having nightmares almost every night... I am also starting to get "afternoonmares" while having a short nap... That shows how tense i am now.. "Can i call the police for student abuse? lmao"

But well, i guess i am still coping well... Everybody is also facing the same thing, and if others can do it, why can't I do it? Hmm... Yesterday, i found a place to scream my lung out...


p/s: I am through to the final round of Chicago Idol... Not very happy about it because i was annoyed with something... Will decide if i should carry on after i am done with all my works!

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This week has been really hard on me.... I have been failing in everything that i have been doing... From election, to audition, to studies, to human relation, and basically everything... Argh... Feel like a total failure again... but anyway, forget about my ranting... This post is meant to "appreciate" the two person who make my week even worse...

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Later today, probably 4 more hours from now, i will be attending CUSA (Chinese Student Association) Election. I will be running for vice president post and also treasurer as my second choice... It's been a long time since i was last involved in a competitive election... After graduating from HSBP, I only took part in two elections, and i won with a landslide victory.. Once in INTEC where i garnered more votes than the President (should have run for President instead.. ), and once in UChicago, where my challengers actually asked people to vote for me instead of him during his speech.. So, the previous two elections weren't really that competitive..

But the one that is going to be held tonight is definitely one of the most competitive one.. I am up running against three other people... All in fact, all three are equally strong contenders... But never did i expect, i am able to stay calm and cool without losing my nerves.. Back in HSBP, i will now start to fret and plan for various strategies to win the election... By saying strategies, i have to admit they include backstabbing, scheming and evil plans... (But again, everyone does that in HSBP la *ehem ehem*) And yes, i was afraid to lose back in HSBP..

However, when i am in Uchicago, this kind of kiasu-ism seems to fade off in me, partly because i no longer have what it takes to be kiasu... I mean, if you wanna be number 1, you need to have the ability mar... But if you dont even have the ability and you try very hard to be number 1, that is not call kiasu, that is called as dreaming.. LOL..

Through this CUSA election too, i saw the evil side of human nature... I saw how scary one can be, or how "clever" one can be in order to win an election... And yes, i don't like that... I bet this was how others felt when they saw me doing the same thing back in HSBP... Scheming, scary, kiasu... Goodness... SORRY SIA TO ANYONE THAT I HAVE HURT DURING THE DAYS WHEN I WAS CRAZY OVER POSTS in HSBP.. HAHAHAHA~

My supervisor just came in( i am working now), and i have to go... Haiy, hopefully everything will turn out fine.. It doesn't matter if i lose, i don't really care... Will i be sad if i lose? Unexpectedly, i will say - NOT AT ALL... :) I guess i have grown a lil to be a young man... Ha ha~

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Nothing much, just officially declared that I have bought the ticket to see "The Answer is...孙燕姿2009 World Tour"... It will be on July 11, Singapore Indoor Stadium... The ticket is expensive, probably the most expensive ticket i have bought so far.... But well, i will be sitting in row 15, so, just merely 14 rows away from her.. wtf... Treating this as an early 21st birthday gift for myself, unless anyone wants to sponsor? Feel free to contact me.. lol~

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Last Saturday, I attended SAMSU Annual Show - Citylights. Unlike other cultural shows (except CUSA since CUSA has a great singer *ehem ehem*) , SAMSU (Singaporean Student Association) organized a poker tournament this year, in conjunction with the success of having the first every casino on the island... Hmm...

The event started with a few talks on luck versus strategy (something like that). As usual, i did not attend any of such talks because i do not want to embarrass myself by sleeping during the talk! I went straight to the dinner with my roommies... And yea, i did make an effort to dress up with my new cardigan... *my cardigan received more praises that i did on that night.. damn T-T* "Jay, your cardigan looks so good... " "Cool Cardigan.." "I wanna buy for my boyfriend too, where did you buy your cardigan? " What about my look, my face? wtf~
After the dinner, we had the first elimination round of poker tournament... Together with some of my friends, we decided to sit at one table so that at least one of us get to go to the final round... Supposedly, the first six person out of 130++ contestant who cleared the table would proceed to the final round.. So, with about 5 minutes left to the end of first round, everyone in my table decided to do all "one game decides the winner" round.. And yea, i won that round and was declared as the first finalist!!
During the final round, the situation was really tense.. Some of the finalist looked damn pro, or rather, they are indeed very poor, kept saying terms that i do not understand... "Limping in, lumping out, all day, half day.. etc etc" lol~


But luck was not with me during the early rounds.. I went all in with a pair of K, and who knows, i lost to this guy who had a pair of A's.. There goes my money... From 200 over dollars, i was left with 15 dollars (because i have more money that him.. so his all in ≠ my all in...)
The SAMSU committee really put a lot of effort in making this tournament looked very professional.. See, they even have screen showing our cards to the audience in the audience room... Damn pro right? *claps claps claps*

If you think that i am the first person to be kicked out, then you are wrong.. Lady luck was hugging me after my disastrous mistake earlier, and since than, i kept winning like never before... One by one was kicked out of the room, and left with three of the finalist...

And yea, in the end, i went all in again with 150 chips with the base card of A and a J... Up against another finalist (the eventual winner) who has a Q and an 8... But never did i expect, the dealers opened two Q's for the first three cards, and thus, i was declared as the 2nd runner-up for the poker tournament!! (ok, they never really declare, but since i was memang third, then i self declare la)..


Ok... Fast fast come play poker with me... :)

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Is officially end of week 2 now... The last two weeks has been really difficult for me, because i was facing with several problems... I tried my very best to solve them one by one , but it just seems too much for me that i chose to give up instead of trying to solve... But I am glad that, most of the problems are solved now... What problems that i have been facing?

1 - Classes to choose. I am currently declaring myself as double major in "economics and psychology" major. However, this lead me to the cruelty of taking hardcore psychology classes which i have no fundamental knowledge at all. I tried out 3 classes, two scares me off with the 150 pages reading per week , and another one rejected my presence! This problem was solved as i have decided to make this quarter FREE AND EASY. Econs, Drama, EALC, and Social Science, with 9 hours of working (~USD 85 per week), with intensive training in badminton and body toning! And not to mention, tons and tons of drama! haha~
I am not so ambitious after all, maybe i just dont really like economics that much, or i am just being too ignorant... Unlike my friends from other nation *ehem ehem* who strive hard to get into good classes to learn more things, i decided to sit back and relax .... Life is too short to do things you are not interested in...

2- Subletting my room for summer. I want to find someone whom i can trust to take over my room over summer... A few people contacted me, but it just seems like they are not they right candidate... I need to find a nerd, who will not mess around on my bed , if you know what i mean... Alas, thanks to Vincent A, this problem was solved as he decided to take over my room over summer.. Trimas Vincent A.

3- I am risking the chance of not going to Barcelona for Study Abroad after all.. And by doing so, i am waving goodbye to my non refundable USD 550 deposit.... Keeping my fingers crossed that i will get to go after all...
Goodness, i wonder why they should change the policy and dont let me go to Barcelona to act out my very own version of "Meteor Garden II"... I need to go there to find my San Cai .. wtf.... I need to go there to immerse myself with the culture... Barcelona.... Please.. Tell me i am going to see you...

4- Some sad love story... I feel like i am a spare tyre now... Use me when only i am needed... Lie to me when you feel like doing so.... And alas, change me when you have a better tyre...
Adrian, maybe i should really follow what you have been telling me... Adrian, adrian.. But that is so hard... I finally understand what you say...


Some good news to share... I am going to watch "THE ANSWER IS...SUN YAN ZI WORLD TOUR 2009".... It will be held on July 11 in Singapore, which is one week before my 21st birthday *cough cough* (i dont need cough cyrup) *wink wink* (i dont need eyes drop)... Damn excited sia.... Well update more on this when i have my confirmation about this!!

I also decided to blog regularly now... For the past few months, i have only been blogging once a week... And since i am in a "Free and EAsy" mode for this quarter, i have decided that... I should continue blogging!! *claps claps* wtf...

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Hmm... It feels a little bit weird when i logged into blogsphere, probably because i have been MIA for quite some time... There are many things that i want to share, but i guess I will have to do maybe over the weekend since i think I should really talk about my Bahamas Trip.

Well, I went to Bahamas over my spring break for 6 days and 5 nights. I would not say it is really really crazily-super-duper pretty, mainly because i think Malaysia also has islands that are as pretty as Nassau but only cost one third of the total expenditures that i had invested on this trip. But nevertheless, it was still a pretty chill, relaxing, and nice place to visit. I have to say that i did feel so well recharged after the trip.

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