Sick...
Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 7:04 PM

Friday
After i am done with the horrendous final SOSC paper, I am totally dead... I struggled for 30 hours to complete the freaking not-so-cool paper,and ended up having very bad throat inflammation... Instead of sleeping, i decided to have a mini celebration in Belmont with Greg and Lemon.. I was almost dying of tiredness, but i still decided to dress up nicely and go for a dinner with them..

The worse part of this dinner is, i accidentally ordered fish and chips despite knowing very well that any more fried and oily food will kill me!! T__T Yes, i ordered, ate it *well, it tasted really good* and now, i am really sick!

Greg's super duper big lamb chop..
After dinner, i went to watch a play - The Piano Lesson. Because i was just too tired, i couldn't even understand anything about the play. To add to my misery, the play is supposed to be 170+ minutes. I quit, i left after the first act... I believed i need to rest, so i went back home and sleep..

Saturday

I woke up feeling worse. Sore throat, coughing like never before, sneezing non-stop *NOT SWINE FLU* .. But i still went to downtown for some community service project. Haven't been to downtown for a long time.
Love Chicago Downtown..

Vincent decided to get something for this art project, so i followed him. And as usual, i ended up buying more stuff that he did.. Kill me for that!

And at night, i went to sing K with my SAMSU friends.. And in order not to disappoint them, i tried my very best to sing despite knowing very well i should not sing that night. My voice was in a very very very bad condition.... But still, i did not listen to my own advice and still went to sing..

This morning i woke up feeling even worse... Still coughing and sneezing... And i could not even utter a single word now.. I have totally lose my voice.. Thanks to the singing session yesterday, i am an idiot... Although i have a great tendency to lose my voice, this is the very first time i completely lost it... I felt like a useless being without my voice... I even have to end up texting Vincent instead of calling him because i really cant talk now...

ARGH.... hate this feeling...

*again, i believe i will be fine soon.. No swine flu, ok?*

** i promise to go see a doctor if i have fever tomorrow, ok?**

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Work And Work...
Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 8:57 PM

I am now in OMSA Office... yes, i am on my shift, working from 7pm till 11pm..

But i am not working on any project, because i have completed all projects thrown to me yesterday...

So i am working on my SOSC paper which is due tomorrow at 5pm.. *i am being paid to write my paper here* LMAO.. Love OMSA job so much!


I really do not know how to even start the paper, but thank to Benji (my ECON prof), i roughly got the idea on what to write... *this will be my last SOSC paper for my entire life... i really need to do well on this paper to ace this class. If not, i will be crying in the toilet over my grades during summer*

And also, thanks to Linda for not giving me new projects to work on..

Looking forward for this weekend

Friday night - Watch "Piano Lesson", a play
Saturday night - Dinner and Karaoke Session in C-Town
Sunday night - Malaysian Student Association Graduation Dinner

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Heard from Papa that my new room looks pretty cool, although it is really dark...

New room? Yes, this summer i will be shifting to Taman Bukit Perdana 2. Saying goodbye to my super convenient and strategically located house in Taman Kurnia.

I no longer have the luxury to ask others to fetch me anymore.. T_T

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After this week, i will be done with 3 out of 4 classes i am taking this quarter.

So happy, and really looking forward for Summer...

Ok, back to work... i mean work on my paper.. =p

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Memorial Day Weekend
Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 12:35 PM

I am supposed to be in UIUC now for the Midwest Games 2009. However, it was canceled at the very last minutes, thanks to the hoo hah by *they shall not be named*. There goes my chance to obtain 3 gold medals in 2 different sports.. LMAO, as if i am going to win even one medal... However, to be really fair, i do see the point of canceling this Midwest Games, despite knowing pretty well the effort that was invested for this games from my peers in UIUC. Here's some summary of what happened that led to the cancellation of the game.. *again, from my knowledge only*
  1. Everyone is damn excited about the game. It is said to be the best Midwest Game ever. *ok, i do agree that if this game were to go on, it will be the best.. just look at how responsive the committee were, and also the official website is a just fantastic*
  2. Out of the sudden, Mr. Swine Flu attacked the world.
  3. Malaysia has its first confirmed swine flu case, and the patient is a student from America.
  4. After the news of the first confirmed case was published in media, The Star reported that the Midwest Game will still go on despite stern warning from sponsors.
  5. When the government knew about it *well, it appeared as one of the headlines in The Star*, Malaysia Student Department(MSD) in Illinois was asked to cancel the game.
  6. MSD told UIUC peeps to postpone the game.
  7. MSD told UIUC, well, the game is now officially canceled.
  8. Everyone unhappy, everyone cried, everyone angry, everyone felt the pain - there goes my money for tickets and etc...
Well, no Midwest Games for me... And thus, i decided to use the long weekend to STUDY! *but oh well, i am still blogging now... LMAO*

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Friday

I decided to work at night to earn more money, making me earning about usd 110 this week!! And i really love my work so much, because i was paid to sit there, take pictures, and listen to a talk.. The talk was about "how do you define maturity?" I really love the talk as i guess that is something that has been circulating in my mind for a while. After the talk, it realy gave me very good insights on how to be a mature person but at the same time, maintain the childishness in me... Sounds profound? Well, it is!

And after my Friday shift, i was officially re-employed again by the my boss. To make things sweeter, i am going to have a pay raise this time. However, i might reject the offer if i get a new work position next year. I prefer to work in my room, rather than spending 9 hours a week outside my room. But again, a higher pay now is really tempting me to work... I am cheapo, so i need the money... And it is quite an easy money, although i need to waste some time doing the job.. But anyway, i am glad that i am giving the job offer again.. This re-employment clearly indicates that i am a good worker... Hee hee~

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Saturday

Paintball Trip. Ok, this is not the first time me playing paintball. And not the first time using a gun. Played for a few time before in Malaysia, and trained for shooting before in Batu Pahat. So, i am not really excited about this paintball trip actually...

But i was wrong.. The fields in America are 10x more fun than in Malaysia. In fact, the center that i went to in Malaysia only have 4 fields, but the one that i went to in Chicago has like 10-15 fields. And most of them are really really cool...

Again, i managed to kill quite a number of people yesterday.. We played open game, so we basically played with other random people (including those who looked damn pro)... I am happy that i killed quite some of the pro people.. Well, actually i killed them because i cheated.. Instead of killing them upfront, i killed them from the back... Ha ha... I actually walked the whole circle *like an idiot* , and shot them from their back... And yes, they yelled "fuck" everytime i did that.. :)

No pictures for the game, because we were so lazy to take pictures! LMAO..
The wound that i got from being killed by people..
*right in the middle of my chest.. looked like love bite.. LMAO*
As usual, we love group pictures..

p/s: i know this post is really dry.. but i really don't know what to post anymore.. Too emo post will invite a lot of concern emails and calls, too dry post will cause losing readership.. Haiy, really don't know how...

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A stunning performance and a Rape Case...
Friday, May 22, 2009 @ 12:56 PM

The internet is not working anymore, which explains why i did not update my blog for quite some time. After reading the previous blog a few time, i am really impressed with myself, for whichever reasons, be it the emotion, ability to create lyrics, etc.

Anyway, last Wednesday, i went to watch IL Divo's concert. This is the concert that i really wanted to watch so badly, because i am really a fan of IL Divo. Their songs actually accompanied me for many restless and helpless nights that i had encountered. You will never know how wonderful are their voices until you really listen to them singing "live" in front of you..

Even the concert hall is decorated with this "atas" decor..
I always think they must have edited their recording, which makes all of their songs so perfect... But i was totally wrong when i listened to them on Wednesday night.. They are just wonderful people... In fact, four of them looked damn charming despite need to belt out those hardcore songs... *see, i told you, the most charming on Earth is those who can sing.. hahahaha*

I took this secretly caused pictures were not allowed..
Sorry for the bad quality tho..


I was really amazed with their voices... You will never be able to imagine how great their voices are.. (ok, this is the second time i repeated this.. ) They have that kind of voices that make you feel so comfortable... so soothing.. so wonderful... so happy.. so sad...

IL Divo... If you ever see this, thanks for bringing such a wonderful performance that night... Your performance that night really give me goosebumps (my very first time in my life)... Probably the best performance /concert / musical that i have ever watched so far!! And also, thanks for the "Bridge Over Troubled Water" cover, and trust me, it is the most beautiful rendition i have ever heard.


p/s: after watching this concert, i am more indebted to my sponsor, BNM.. Thanks for sending me to USA to study although i don't really like economics.. But at least, i get to see IL Divo singing live in front of me.. that is good enough.. LMAO..

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Last Tuesday, i had my Sosc presentation, my first ever presentation in University of Chicago. I was in the same group as the "top 3 students in the class".. The 3 girls basically spoke the most in the class, while i basically speak like 2-3 sentences per class... So, i was really happy to be in the same group as them since it will be a group grade after all..

Who knows, during the actual presentation day, i was owned by all three of them.. They were so dominant and did not give me any freaking chance to speak... Ta Ma De .... Hello~ I am your group mate, by doing so to me, you are jeopardizing your own grade, not only mine... Worst still, you all stole my idea and said it as if it was yours!! Ta Ma DE x2 .. And in the end, you all still happily said, we did a good job ... Ta Ma De x3... Good job? You mean "we" or "you all" ??

I am really keeping my fingers crossed that Prof Heath wont really mind that i was rather quite that day... T-T

I felt that they "raped" me after the presentation.. T-T

******

The more i see, the more i feel not worth it...
Really not worth it...
你不配,不是我不陪。。。

*****
杰仔

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我最。。诚恳。。告解。。
Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 6:39 PM

看见你快乐,
是我给你的最后包容。。
我痛了,烦了,累了,哭了。。。

还以为能轻易的把你忘记,把你遗忘。。
但事实上,好像很不简单。。
可能这就是,
男人奸的地方。。。
不到失去,就不会去珍惜。。。

天空也在笑我。。。
沉迷的没用。。
喜欢与爱。。。
傻傻分不清楚。。。

我不爱了,我要不爱了。。。
曾经爱过就够了。。。
我情愿住在漆黑的角落。。。
可能会是最好的解脱。。。

我告解了,
也不愿再当你的玩偶,
默默的看着你,
心理挣扎的很痛。。

要人说,
当你和他说我们,
你是否想到我的感受?
我认了。。不能不认了。。。

在海边的我。。。
看着辽阔的大海。。
微微的笑着。。。
不知眼泪直流。。。

不知道你脑海里在想什么。。。
只希望你能快乐,能快活。。。
请保佑我,有巧合我们还在遇见。。。
保佑我,他不会比我难过。。。
保佑有我,他会比我快活。。。 :)

*********
杰仔

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Weird? Sick? Psycho?
Friday, May 15, 2009 @ 4:17 PM

Spring Quarter... Most people really loves spring quarter the best.. Why?
But for me, that is not why i love Spring. I love spring for two very weird, sick, psychotic reasons:-

1 - Since it is Spring, the weather is rather wet. It rains for about 3-4 times a week. And I REALLY LOVE RAINY SEASONS. Rainy days make me really happy. Heavy rain makes me even happier. Since young, i am the kind of guy who will be really happy when it rains whereas my counterpart will complaining about the rain. I think i have this kind of fetishism because i have been having really good things happening during rainy seasons. For example, my dad will drive a car instead of a bike to work during rainy seasons. My rate of winning a competition is higher if it rains.


2- I LOVE LOUD AND SCARY THUNDER + LIGHTNING. Ok, i understand this might sound too extreme. But again, i am really surprise that i actually love thunder and lightning so much. They are just two wonderful things that happen on Earth. And the sound of thunder is even more amazing... I really do not know how to describe this feeling of mine, but well, this two things really attract my attention so much!!

Aren't they stunning?


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Enough of this weird stuff... Life is damn "sien" now.. Nothing much too do besides readings readings and more readings... Next week, i will have my first sosc presentation and also my first acting presentation... Quite well prepared for both, so i am keeping my fingers crossed that they shouldn't give me too much of a problem.

Besides that, next week, i am taking part in Malaysia Midwest Game 2009. Heard that some ex-national junior players are playing in that competition too...But who are they? LOL... *ehem ehem* Besides badminton, i am also taking part in 60 meters and 200 meters sprinting. Micheal Phelps can get 8 gold medals , so i think 4 gold medals should not be that hard for me.. *ok, i am just kidding, winning one medal of any color will be good enough for me*

This year has been rather disastrous for me. I lost in almost every single competition that i took part in.. Si beh sueh (Sibeh = very ; sueh= unlucky ; sibeh sueh = very unlucky)..

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Received a demo from Mr. Dong. He asked me to go through the music and see if i am interested in collaborating with him again.. But after the scary tryout last year, i am really worried about the song given. However, this time around, the demo is indeed 104324234x better than last year..It is more pop and more commercialized... Last year, i was given a demo entitled "Train", i rejected the offer and the song is actually sold online now.. Ha ha~ Trust me, the song sounds like... -_-!!!! *if you know what i mean**

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Friends..
Monday, May 11, 2009 @ 11:32 PM

Friday - 8th May 2009

I took part in the final round of Chicago Idol. This year, as i have said, the competition is like 1894324234x more competitive than last year. As predicted, i did not win anything in that competition. However, i was not disappointed (ok, maybe a bit), because i felt to happy with the support shown by so many of my friends! Special big thanks to my 2+1 housemates, Wilson & Vincent & Ji-Sook, for the nice and big banner... Thanks to all Singaporean buddies.. Election and now this, you guys are really wonderful! (well, maybe some of you came for the Free food.. haha)
I lost the competition, but i won friendship...

p/s: **updated** i just got scolded for not mentioning a group of great people... They are non other than my beloved Malaysians buddies... Thanks NURJANNAH (NJ) for your presence (although well, most of the time you are looking at MR.K instead of me), GLORIA for your support, and of course, Adrian!! :) Thanks.. Malaysia kali ini kalah, tapi usah bimbang, kita akan berusaha lagi tahun hadapan.. ;p

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Saturday - 9th May 2009

Knowing that i am too disappointed with Chicago Idol result, Benny and Lim En forced me to Six Flags Great America, a very popular theme park in America. (ok, i lied, they didn't know i am a bit disappointed.. they just wanted me to go...) Initially, i didn't really want to go because after the Six Flags San Fransisco trip, i am really scared of going to any other Six Flags. However, i still went in the end because:-
Six Flags Great America Main Entrance
Vince, Benny, Lim En
Emo Railway Picture
With the wooden Coaster..
Spastic..
Overall, it was really a fun and happy trip going out with them! To be very honest, i didnt really have time to feel disappointed for losing the Chicago Idol, because i felt so blessed to have so many wonderful friends around me.. (huhz, cant believe i actually said that... *goosebumps*)


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After this, i will only see Benny for one more quarter if i am going to Barcelona. He is going Paris for fall quarter, and i am going during winter quarter. Maybe i should have applied to Paris with him... Oh well, back then, i felt that i need to challenge myself by applying something that is harder to get in.. And i really wanna go Barcelona to have my own version of "Meteor Garden 2" LMAO...

Besides Benny, i am actually gonna see the rest of close friends for only two more quarters. Thinking about this shit makes me kinda sad... Time really wait for nobody, it's have been almost two years since all of us know each other!

Gotta cherish the remaining time that i have with all of them...

p/s: I kinda do not know what i am typing for this post, because i am damn tired after submitting my weekly assignment.. But nevertheless, i know that this bunch of people especially the Singaporeans have really make my stay in Chicago 1000x more interesting..

Without them, i will not have a papa, a lemon, a lao shu, a ru lao(cheese), a god father, a gan die, a xi hai zi (dead lil kid)... LOLx... and of course, a brother.. **you all should know who you are**

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Luck... Oh Luck..
Friday, May 8, 2009 @ 1:25 AM

I am actually quite worried right now... However, i am actually not that worried.. I really do not know how it describe this feeling of being worried and at the same time, being not worried... Anyway, this week was rather easy breezy for me... I accidentally skipped my economics class despite having 3 alarm clocks.. So, i basically only had 3 days of classes this week..

However, i have not been feeling very well this week... Fret not, i am not down with any form of flu.. Rather, i was still mentally tired after a great struggle last week. Last week has been crazy for me.. 4 papers and 1 midterm was really crazy.. And this week, i started to feel the effect of that crazy schedule... Besides, the non-so-good-economics-midterm has definitely added some spices to my weak mental structure now... T-T

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Anyway, tomorrow is the Chicago Idol Final... I was the winner last year, but as i have said earlier, my chances of winning is further reduced from 0.00001% to 0.000000003%. Why?
So, i have decided to go there just to entertain my friends... Although i really want to win it so badly (especially this year they are giving out trophy), i know very well this year my chances of defending the title is really low.. I need the prize money... T-T

Of course, i have to admit, it feels like shit when you go into a competitonj knowing very well that you wont win.. To make it worse, i am the defending champion.. To make it worse x2, my boss and colleagues from OMSA will make a special trip to support me tomorrow night... To make it worse x3, i dont like to lose....ARGH!!!

Ok, enough of my ranting~

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Time to show you some joke.. Thanks to my buddy, Jason G, i have no choice but to reveal that:-
I actually have a plastic surgery on my face.Why? Got pictures as evidences..

-Pictures were taken 4 years ago-
This is how i look like now...
Quite successful ya? Anyone who is thinking about having plastic surgery, u can email me.. I will recommend you who to go to. Professional and cheap.. 100% satisfaction.. (wth, sounds so wrong)... I am happy that i did that surgery to make me look better now..

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Heart Attack..
Wednesday, May 6, 2009 @ 12:13 AM

My class ended at 1.30pm today. When i got home, i felt like i was going to have a heart attack anytime soon... My heart beat so fast as if I just saw someone i love, or I thought i am gonna sing in front of 10000000 people.... My heart was pumping so fast like never before... I calmed myself down and tried to remember if i had consumed anything that might lead to this symptom...

And of course, i have "Google" as my best friend... I did some research and realized that, yea, i did drink something that almost killed me.. I was walking in front to Reg Library and there were these few hot chicks giving out free drinks... I walked closer to them to see how hot they are, and they gave me this nicely bottled drink.


It is a kind of those energy booster drink, similar to Red Bull. I actually drank it without realizing that it was actually an energy booster drink... I drank the whole big bottle in a gulp because i was so thirsty after eating the freaking not nice Chinese Bun... My heart actually started pumping faster immediately after i drank it. But i never realize it because I thought i was just too nervous as i was doing an in class presentation after drinking it... This "nervousness" continued until i was back home, only then I realized something must be wrong... LOL..

If you face the same problem as i did after drinking energy booster drink, you should:-
p/s: Anyway, i think i am just allergic to energy booster drink... So, i am not asking anyone of you from not drinking that drink, just to make sure i will not be sued. LMAO..

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Anyway, i changed the furniture layout of my room.. My room looks more spacious now, with more space for me to dance, sing, and be crazy... I also bought some vases as room decor...

Home...
Vases By the Window

My Work Station
** the Polaroid-ed pictures do not look as good, so i decided to post the original picture too..**

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Right Path Taken?
Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 9:36 PM

I have just gotten back my economics mid term paper.. Of course, i didn't fail the paper but oh well, i didn't do that well... As a reminder, i am majoring in Economics... Why Economics? Don't ask me why, as i never even apply for it... 4 years ago, i applied Medicine for JPA, Medicine for Asean, Pharmacy for UEM, Pharmacy for Inti, Law for MMU, and Law for BNM.. Can you see any similarities in there?
So, how did i end up doing Economics? Again, because of my stupid mouth. I was trying hard to impress my interviewer the other day, and i told them i collected RM 5000 for Tsunami Victims.. bla bla bla... And they said, "You will work better as an economist, not as lawyer" Few weeks later, i received a call - "Jay Sern Tan, congrats, Economics , America, accept or not?"

And i was desperate for a scholarship after failing my application for Medicine. I said yes without a second thought. I was thinking that being a banker is not that bad, at least, i can dress up so nicely and dont have to worry of being on-call 24/7. Out working at 8am, and back at 4.30pm... Spent the evening with family, friends or sports... That is what i call as life!

But now, it seems like i am really struggling with this thing... I dont think i have that much passion in Economics, although not that i am in love with anything else [except someone.. : )] . I do not hate economics tho, but i just dont have special interest in it.. In the past, i never complain how hard is my biology class... Now, i complained and rather gave up complaining on my econ classes... Compared to my counterpart, my batch mates who are doing economics in my school, it seems like i am achieve nothing... T-T

But again, even if i am given the chance to do Medicine or Pharmacy, will i be happier? No, i do not know... Maybe grass is always greener on the other side of land? (ok, i might use it wrongly, i am bad in idioms.. so, treat it as a joke if it is wrongly used) Maybe i will really be happy if i can pursue my studies in Graphics and Interior Design... Up to this point, i am not sure if i have taken the right path... Advises anyone?

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This Friday, i am taking part in the Chicago Idol Final Round. I won it last year, but this year, my chances of winning is 0.00001%. By winning, i am not saying to be the champ. It will be a daunting task for me to be in the Top 3 this year, let alone to be the champion. This year, for don't know what reason, so many terror people are taking part..

My short description of myself and the song that i am gonna sing!
p/s : i cut out some words here to
prevent myself from upsetting someone.. lol..
p p/s: a girl who i like, heard it? see it?


I need the winning prize money to pay for my rental , to pay for my food, to pay for my survival... I need to win.. I really need to win... But again, i wont be disappointed if i lose anyway, cause i am not pinning on any hope of winning... Seems like this year i am losing my title of "Chicago Idol" to someone else... Hopefully there is a crowning ceremony, so that i can pass my trophy to the winner this year LMAO.. (like the beauty pageant style.. haha)

Vote for me , if there is any voting session ya! (ok, i made that up) ... I sucks in voting , especially after my downfall for CUSA Election.. LOL.. So, praying hard that there is actually no voting involved, because if they do, i will lose my ass even before competiting... -I am such a loner, and well, not many friends- Or maybe i have a lot of friends who will turn against me when it comes to election and voting? :p

Ok, show u some retard picture of mine using Polaroid software.. It definitely triggered my urge to buy a Polaroid... *hint hint*

Happy... i wonder when can i be as happy as that again..

Look at my eyes, one big one small..

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Damn Sien To The Fullest...
Saturday, May 2, 2009 @ 10:06 PM

I asked for extension for my paper which was supposed to due yesterday... I am 80% done with the paper now, but I know that it is a badly written paper... My content sucks to the fullest... "How will Freud suggest so that kids can develop into a happy and well-adjusted adult?" ... As i am writing this paper, it seems like i am advocating that marriage among siblings should be legalized LMAO... How How? My paper is going to advocating incest, but that is definitely not something that i want... T-T

Is May now, i am 6 weeks away from my summer... I need a break, like seriously needing one... And with my amazing summer plans coming up, i am really looking forward for it...Here's my summer plan:-

** confirmed plans**

June 15 - Flight to Los Angeles
June 16 - Flight to Taiwan
June 16 - June 29 - Taiwan 2 weeks trip
June 29 - Flight back to Malaysia
July 9- July 12- Singapore
July 11- Sun Yan Zi's "The Answer Is... Concert 2009"
July 18 - My 21st Birthday *cough cough hint hint*
August 16 - Daddy's birthday
August 26 - August 31 - Sydney, Australia
Sept 1 - Sept 9 - Auckland, New Zealand
Sept 9 - Sept 15 - Brisbane, Australia
Sept 16 - Flight back to Malaysia
Sept 19 - Mummy's Birthday
Sept 25 - Flight back to Chicago

**tentative plans**
end of july - Hong Kong Trip
mid august - Genting Highland or Redang Island Trip

Ok.. Done.. Damn excited.. CSP peeps, lets meet up in Singapore or Taiwan if we have the chance ya? :)

And, this summer, really thanks to mum's good deal in getting me such cheap tickets to Australia. My round trip air ticket to Australia is only a mere RM1500, which is so cheap considering that i am actually taking Malaysia Airlines and i can earn mileage from it! And my round trip Australia -New Zealand ticket is only RM 600, and this is dirt cheap la ok? I know RM 2100 can do a lot of things, but then... if i go during other times, i might have to pay RM 3500-RM4000 for the same flights...

Wooohooo~ Thinking of my summer plans make me happy to the max, especially i am celebrating my 21st birthday with my family and friends... Probably gonna have a party, but will depend on the progress of the house... *keep you guys updated*

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